Summer ends and Fall begins. Family vacation gives way to school routine. As this transition unfolded this year, I found myself thinking about how the last year has gone.
Most of the feelings aren’t good ones.
This year overflowed with circumstances out of my control. Financial plans have gone awry. Relationships have strained; some even fell apart. Things I had hoped to do with my family weren’t able to happen. Parts of my life that used to feel solid, trust-worthy, have become unpredictable.
I’ve not ever had a year that was so consistently painful, where the only way through was one foot-dragging step at a time.
In situations like this, my prayers are embarrassingly whiney.
On good days, I pray for God to guide me, to lift my attitude, to help me walk faithfully on this path I’ve been given. But there are many many more bad days, and on those days my prayers (when I pray) are a litany of circumstances I want God to change and people I want God to fix. Life is uncomfortable, dang it! I want God to make me comfortable again!
I was in this mood while trying to write. Not a very creative or reflective space. Attempting to start the ball rolling downhill, I browsed through my folder of “starts.” This is where I keep brief notes, half-started posts, book ideas, and other seeds that I collect along the way that have the potential to grow into great writing.
One such start mentioned the four promises of following God. That sounded intriguing. I’m in a place where I could use some promises. So, I read the attached passage, Proverbs 3:5-12.
Here I found four promises, alright. Three really good ones and one that I don’t like at all. It also turned into a great way to give meaning to my last year. If you’ve had a hard time lately, you may find it helpful too.